Family
Family. family is a word that for others contains love, understanding, compassion, frustration, sacrifice, and motivation
For me how ever that word contains a vocabulary of different sorts such as hate, betrayals, let downs, lies, loveless, and deception
However it wasn’t always like that i was born into a family of me my two older brothers and sister. When i was born my father left my mother it was a have lose to my siblings and mother but not for me because i never depended on him. i was brought up in Louisiana within the french quarter district until i was three then moved to new york till i was seven then to Florida. Now back then my family had their faults
An single alcoholic of a mother who was never home because she would always be working to jobs to make us a living.
an abusive older brother that would let out his frustration on his smaller siblings.
a sister who would like to experiment with my head by placing her twisted ideals of life in there.
and another older brother who outcast himself from the family.
and me a boy who always seemed to be emotionally unstable.
even with all this faults we were happy until one day my mothers older sister moved in with her daughter, then are happy little family went to complete shit
you see my mom was always a push over and never liked to be stressed out by things so she basically let my aunt do whatever she pleased and to shorten the story she basically become a tyrant to the point all of my sibling ran away the moment the graduated from high school one after the other and surprisingly the have have all made a life for themselves and i one point even i ran away in hopes for a better life i even joined the Marines but that idea went up in smokes when uncle sam discovered that my health is about as fragile is as those free condoms you get at the planed parenthood place and i was sent back home to the hell that awaited me i even tried the whole go to college and work thing but my aunt found a way to screw that up to the point i had to leave home and leave with a friend for a while while i went to school but she even managed to ruin that and that so called friend ended up becoming a back stabber but that a story for another time.
so eventually me mother finally stood up and kicked my aunt out and brought me back where everything was peachy until guess what my aunt came back while my mom was away then one thing lead to another and no to day is august 23 2011 i was kicked out of my own house by someone who didnt even birth me at 4:00 am because my paycheck from work didn’t come in on time while my mother stood there and watch so now im at my friends steven’s house . and so many things have happened to me this past summer where i dont feel anything at all as if i should just stop existing im so dead inside and i fear that because i don’t know what that means i just don’t care about living or dying i just want to vanish from this reality. but i cant i stuck and the only thing that keeping me tied down to this world are the bonds ive made one in which i really regret cause that bond has made me fallen for it unintentionally but with due time all will be severed. but the only thing i can do now is smile no matter what just keep smiling….forever
